Embrace your fears and tell your story! 

Who else, is afraid to speak their truth like me? Who else feels not good enough to be heard by others? Who else disqualifies him/herself and undermines their own strength by holding back and making them self small? Who else has these urges to speak up in groups or on social media but is afraid to be judged by others?

I have been posting a lot here in Facebook and I even spoke in front of a camera. But sometimes I have these periods where I turn into my hermit mode and don’t want to come out, because I got scared again. It’s not even that someone of somebody said anything wrong. It is my own mind telling me lies. The fear that i’m not being loved or not being or doing good enough, are dangerous ingredients for the fear of living.

Often I write something and I find It for example not good enough (a mix of perfectionism + a low self esteem), or I tell myself that others are not ready for this kind of information. Or I undermine myself by asking questions like what is the purpose of doing this, what is in it for me?  why am I doing this? And this causes me to go into deep processes where the universe shows me and reminds me exactly why I’m posting all of this stuff. I allow myself (sometimes i’m being forced) to look at these ‘dark’ (shadow) questions, because it teaches me strength, resilience, self love and to embrace my fears. Continue reading Embrace your fears and tell your story! 

Happy Holy days!

Everyday is a Holy day. Or at least that is what everyday could be if you choose to put the magic in it. The choice is yours. If you decide to make today special, then so it will be.

Let’s be honest, the holiday seasons do have special magical powers, especially the ones in the winter. It is not special though because all of the stories we tell. Yes, the stories are part of the holiday experience. Stories about hope and peace, do contribute to this special feeling that we all together create. Stories of victory, of harmony and new beginnings. Holy days are special because, we humans, give special powers to those days.
All together
We put our best happy face on

We smile more
We do more kind things for one another
We take care of those who have less
We bless each other
We give presents to each other
We have empathy for the suffering of another
We sing songs of hope
We dress into our most beautiful clothes
We eat delicious prepared meals
We put on lights everywhere
We come together for a good time
We are grateful for what we have. And yes…. The magic works. All our effort influences our overall feeling. It influences our moods for the better and therefore the holidays are holydays. If nobody would make an effort, there would be nothing holy about the holidays. If we would not give meaning, there would be nothing special about the holidays. Continue reading Happy Holy days!

So… you write all these texts and publish them for your fun, but who are you men?

I do find it a challenge to talk about who I am with others. I do struggle to find ways to express the unusual things that happen in my life. Often I receive thoughts, ideas and realisations about things I could do to make this world a little bit more beautiful. Sometimes new ideas pop up in my head about creating pieces of art. I receive many suggestions, mostly in an instant, about life itself and about human behaviour. I see from some things why they are functioning in the they function. Often when I talk to people I just know the solution to their problems.  I discovered that I am a healer too. With for example a reiki treatment I can channel energies that are healing for body, mind and emotion. But as I already mentioned. I find it difficult to talk about it. and to express these things. So usually I shut my mouth.  Continue reading So… you write all these texts and publish them for your fun, but who are you men?

The beauty of life lessons

The profound life lessons we are learning are not so much written in words, nor can you find them in books. Although many have written about them in books. The wisest lessons we are learning, so that we can grow on a human level,  are from the interaction with others. It is in the difficulty and in conflicting situations that we start to think about how things could be different. Only when life becomes uncomfortable, we start to invent these creative solutions. It is quite interesting to notice that when things seem ok, life seems to stagnate. The opposite is quite true. The feeling of ‘nothing ever happens in my life’ could be a trigger to make different choices again, so that things start to flow. After all, Why should you move if all is right?  Continue reading The beauty of life lessons

Pain and human emotions

Pain is something we all feel and it is very real. Sometimes pain can be overwhelming. I’m not speaking about physical pain, but more the emotional/spiritual pain. As a human I find it a challenge to be open about my emotions. I find it a challenge to talk about the kind of pain i’m experiencing. I don’t always get the feeling that there is a place for emotions in our society. From a young age we were taught that we are supposed to stand tall and fight against our emotions. If you show them you are labeled as weak or soft, or you have ‘lost control’. When you do show your emotions in public, people think something horrible happened to you, because it is an exception to see someone expressing his or her emotions outside on the street. As a guy it is even more of a challenge, because the main idea about a man is that he needs to be a warrior, a fighter. It is this twisted concept that causes a big part of my pain as well. Continue reading Pain and human emotions

You are more special than you think!

The idea that spirituality is only for a select group of people stems from very old ideas about who was able to serve god. These ideas are still imprinted into our consciousness. When we have a religious or spiritual problem we go to our priest, rabbi, imam, guru, shaman, psychologist, for a solution. You tell them your story and you expect that they will come with an suitable answer. This is what they have studied for. It is their job.

The middleman is supposed to be the translator, the communicator between you and the divine. And it is true. Some people are better in making the connection than others. Some people have this gift, while others have many other gifts. Thank god these people are here to help others. Thank god these humans exist and offer their help so that the symbolical, universal language becomes understandable in human language. When spirit communicates with us, it could be through metaphors, symbols and dreams, but also through thoughts, feelings and visions (and many many other ways). When you really need to receive a message, you will receive it through the channel that suits you most. Eventually you will understand the message. Continue reading You are more special than you think!

The gift of opening up

Every single day I learn more about myself and about the world around me. It is not by surprise that I learn new things. I asked for it. For many years. I wanted to know who I was and what the purpose of me being here on earth is. Over time, I got some puzzle pieces thrown at me from my spirit team (you have a team too!! Go talk to them). There are a couple reasons why they only give pieces of the puzzle. 1) It is to overwhelming to get all the information at once and 2) There is no fun left to live for when you know everything.

A way for me to cope with my social anxiety is to do completely the opposite of what someone with social anxiety would normally do. Instead of hiding, I’m opening up. It is part of my learning experience in this Universe(ity). By opening up myself, there is not much I can hide for others. I can not hide behind shame, guilt, addictions, or fears. I share parts of myself as much as I can in the moment and in return I learn to overcome my fears and everything that stands in my way to feel freedom. It is a great deal! Continue reading The gift of opening up