Last couple of months the universe showed me what being vulnerable really feels like. It was a tough ride. Heavy mood swings were part of my daily life. Physical and emotional pain raging through my body. My heart was bleeding heavily. It felt so much pain. Most of the time I didn’t understand were it came from. Why did I had to go through all of this shit? Why did I feel so much pain? What did I do wrong in order to deserve this?
These questions and many many more, were needed to be asked. Those questions came from my wounded ego that did not understand that it was wounded in the first place. My ego always tells me that everything is well. And yes, usually all is well. But now, with the intense rising of the energies on the planet, these feelings had to come up. My emotions wanted to be seen, my shadows wanted to be heard and my truth wanted to be felt. I knew I had to go through this period in my life in order to process all the heavy energies that I carried unknowingly with me for such a long time. Continue reading How the universe taught me to be vulnerable
It sounds so easy when someone tells you to change. It sounds so easy when you decide to change something about yourself. Especially now in these times, many people talk about it, though not everyone is willing to make the effort or knows how to.
Lately, I have been trying to break all my habits that have kept me in my lower vibration. Everything that is not helping me to make progress in life, I am banning it from my lifestyle. Smoking and drinking are just two examples of what i’m working on at the moment. I have figured out that smoking and drinking are not so much the problem. They are actually the solution for a problem that was hiding underneath. Smoking and drinking were the cure against my lower self-esteem. They were tools so I could hide from the real issues. I never had to face these problems, because I could lit a cigarette and drink a glass of cold beer and when it finished, i would order another one. Continue reading Breaking habits for personal growth
Everything is always easier said than done. This is very true for the spiritual path too. How many times haven’t I said to myself: “there you go, you’ve arrived to happiness. As if happiness is some sort of train station where you can step off and where you can walk through Happyland. The ego system always amazes me. Sometimes, I wish I could drown my ego, because it can be a pain in the ass, a real burden between what I’m saying I want and what I actually do about it to achieve my goal. But now I’m slowly learning to embrace my ego, in order to make it a part of me that completes my being. Continue reading Your heart knows your path